Aarrggghh
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i think if you look in a dictionary and look up the word "confused", you'd probably see my face as the definition.. i really dont know whats going on.. at first you were like "this", then you were like "that". and now your like "this" again.. im the type of person to over anaylse everything, and i mean everything.. even puctuation in your messages means so much to me when i interpret it.. so what does this mean now?! my head is exploding with all these thoughts.. is it "this" or is it "that".. how am i suppose to act now? aarghh!! why is it so difficult to say what i wanna say to you.. to hell with that question.. even i know that.. its because im ME.. because im ME, its this freaking way.. why cant i just break out of my freaking shell.. chicks can do it.. and they are just born! wth! but this episode in my life is really turning into something.. i mean i never really thought i would be the type of person to put in so much effort and thoughts into this.. i mean me? the guy who is against this? the guy who keep cursing other people's joy? maybe thats why i cant experience it.. so am i the guy who watch other people be happy? and be the one in shadows hoping the same will happen to me?

okok.. so blogging is a way for me to express stuff.. the place where i can let out what's been bottled up.. there's more where that came from but i dont think im making any sense.. maybe its not suppose to make sense.. who knows ya.. thanks Idayu for the tip.. =]